Veronica woke up being raped, again. We have not uploaded recently due to yet another harddrive failure. Everything we have mentioned in the past is still ongoing. What makes it feel like torture is how explicit and reactive it is. How all other sensations except her sexual areas become muted, how she can have her emotions stripped from her after being loudly angry or sad, how everytime she goes to the washroom or lies down there’s a spike in sexual sensations and spasms in those areas.
Being aware of patterns in your body or environment shouldn't cause someone to be mocked. I’m sorry she doesn't believe in ghosts, fey creatures, demons, or tiny gods, but instead in technology that currently exists. She believes in Nirvana and the unconditioned, and that living the 8-Fold path will lead one to escape dukkha (suffering). She believes this because in Feb of 2018 she experienced it for herself, and for months after was truely happy and could meditate. Now she can’t and she isn’t. -BC